First and foremost it’s not bout being hurt…
Yeahhhhh iiighttt…
HE EMOTIONAL!!!!
Okay!! Okay!! Sort of…
Second bulletin point- I Ain’t Shit…!!
All jokes aside!!
It’s not about being hurt.
It’s about clearance.
The REALIZATION that NO one is above any one!!
Or better-in any sense of the word.
It’s simply timing.
What you done at 25 people have already accomplished at 14. The hype, the fulfillment will no longer be what it was.
Also…
Women and men will never understand each other…
GRANTED FUCKING FACTS!!
Howeverrr (you knew that was coming)
It can never be one sided…
As in the universe, reality, you know stone cold facts-numbers.
And we ALL know there’s double standard for each sides.
Men can’t cry.
Women can’t fuck without judgment.
Yet I’m speaking on a particular issue here people…
So keep your emotional defense-
The world hates me
He used me,
She broke me bulllshit to your self- POR FAVOR!!
Men, well ME specifically speaking- make understanding a women A TOP PRIORITY!!
My mother, my friends, girl, wife, safe pussy…
I NEED an open dialogue at all times!! Granted- I’M A PROVEN LIAR. Up for NO debate!!
Ironically, my genetic make up WILL DO DAMN NEAR anything not to be judged. If I cannot let my soul dance on your dance floor- I will retreat. No explanations!! The problem comes in when I want you in my life. I begin to then do anything necessary to not lose our creation. I lied out of fear. Fear of destroying a vibe only we can conjure up. The horrific irony- I need an open dialogue but is a liar. Something was off-missing. I needed to find the link, the rope to bring it closer. Lying to keep you, you, him and her happy- I was miserable. For a few it was manageable, even exciting. Yet the feeling of misery never seemed to be shaken. Anyway, I won’t say Lessons because it’s insufficient in definition. In its allure. What was blessed upon me was what we call- MANNING UP. Learning to first be honest and authentic with self before ANYONE. In doing so, this Boulder is being removed!! Slowly and still currently, but removing none the less!! With that said, you now in the loop. My disclaimer given. Let me get to why we are here today…
You ever met a person whose entitlement surpassed their effort?!
Yet still wants you to give it all when they proved to you over and over again- its value is determined on their attitude. Ungrateful, spoiled human beings. Use you against you. Flip your principles as if aluminum foil. Then spits it back to you as though it came from their narcissistic mental. Nothing is ever enough for such people.
It’s quite sad to be honest.
It’s never their fault!! No matter what you give them, no matter how great a day- they just need to be upset about something. You know those people. I swear you do!! Say they understand your concepts when in actuality- how can I make this work for me?! What can I gain?! Never invested more than 10% percent but wants a fair share/cut. When you never gave one and KNOWS it!! Evil, conniving plots and schemes to manipulate someone. Claims to be in love when you say YES. When you do as they say, when they say- just do it their way and it’s rainbows. Attempts to ruin your day or plans in order to simply GAIN attention. All while saying it’s your fault aka JUST GIVE ME WHAT I WANT!!
“Compromise is your way”. I was told by ignorance. When in all reality that’s your style- DICK HEAD!! And it’s not even deserved!!
When you take someone for granted and they leave you. It dawns on you- Oh shit- I lost something DIVINE!! Now you notice!! Yet apologizes while shaming me. Guilt trips in every conversation. Forced a way of thinking onto one that only worked when said person was weak. Flipped thru fire hoops to appease your dumb, selfish ass.
Lost the person. Person STILL doesn’t give up and YOU STILL act the very fucking same. Doesn’t even realize the blessing of still being able to even get an answer. Talk about a head shoved up a fancy ass, huh?! Believes one is deserving of something that one has never gave.
Blind to the accomplishments, ignorant to blatant love. Using your very own loving, forgiving aura against you. Yet you love this person!! Care if they ate or slept!! Yet tell them NO and you become non existent. Then say it’s you. Cause of you. Lets you vent openly and speak,to only use your OWN information for fuel. Making you feel like shit cause-hey maybe they’re right.
Force you to live, behave a certain way AND REALLY FUCKING BELIEVE YOU WILL BE HAPPY!!
Just give them what they want- at all times. Asks for one thing- receives it. Ask for another- receives it. Ask for another- receives it. Ask for another- denied…
“How can you be so selfish”
“You changed”
People don’t grow up, they just get older. Never NOT judged you and when the rug was tugged just a tad, now wants to give a chance- BUTTT it has to be on their terms. GAS LIGHTING- these people are MICHAEL JORDAN of GAS LIGHTING. Making you feel guilty for trying to be better. Trying to make it so their lives will change for the better. For the team. BUT, BUT. Ruins plans before they even happen- EVERY-TIME!! Not even once has it not happen. Runs that big hole in their face yet won’t change the mindset. A dumb piece of shit in brutal terms. I don’t care what assets you have. Dumb is dumb. But tell a dumb person that.
I say this with pure love no judging but once again- dumb is dumb. Flip flopping over everything. One person in the day. Another at night. I TRULY HATE people in terms of being so stuck. Sooo close minded. So short. So perfect right- lmao!!! Knows their faults but knows yours better!! Wants everyone to change but self. Says sorry and at the same time- it’s your fault though!!
They want you to live- yeah cool. But live life according to them.
How is that love?!
Tell me readers!! Love is FREE!!
How can you want a man or woman to lay next to you knowing they doing it just so you don’t get upset?!
HOW IS THAT LOVE!!
HOWWWWWWWWWWW?!!
No matter what you are going through, THEIR needs come first. In some way, some how. THE MOST LOVING PEOPLE EVER I SWEAR!!
BUTTT only on their terms!! Yet its never on their terms. Your the culprit. They blame you for THEIR personal issues. Blame you for shit they always ran from. Show them a love they never received and how they treat you?! Like those WHO used you. But what is TOO WICKED is THOSE people don’t receive such backlash though. I do. Your experiences through your upbringing tainted the notion that you can really be blessed with PURE UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!! Yet never held that over them. Never JUDGED YOU!! You used your unconditional love as an measurement of power. It’s heartbreaking.
Fucking sickening once it’s that FUCKING clear. Then cause you love them, when they attack you with bullshit- you DEAD BELIEVE IT!!
All discombobulated in the soul. A place they’re only in cause at one point- you trusted them with your life!! True colors they call it.
I rather call it for what it is- manipulation!!
When a person never knew LOVE. That hold your hair when throwing up love. Then washing it for you love. That go to sleep, I’ll clean love. Show you game love. Love for the sake of loving. Ass, tits mean shit. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE!!
What kind of person does one have to be to disrespect such love?! STEP ON IT!! MOCK IT WHENEVER MAD!! TOSS IT AROUND!! What’s sooo sad about said dick head is that’s all what’s stopping everything!!
Self reflection is A MUST!! Can’t see shit outside of self and wants to be accepted. Judges you for years to be the very piece of shit you feared them to be. Life don’t give zero fucks about what you like or love. Life is life!! You can die for someone and they won’t show up to pay respects. Such is life. Make it work for the soul and keep pushing. What truly hurts is someone being on your team and using the playbook against you. AND you knew that play looked too familiar, you just couldn’t accept your Ryder would do you such a way. Until they do. And that shit. STINGS. Making you question everything you ever believed. Like reading the Bible. All those various interpretations. Yet their interpretation is malicious. Not cause one is angry or hurt.
FACTS ARE FACTS!! The truth fits all.
Twenty four hours in a day, right?! Can be floating on air for twenty three hours but that last hour. Designated for some type of hate. Problem. Issue. Dilemma. Knows they overthink, bashes those around them, then says sorry.
OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN!!
But because we love them selfish cock suckers- we keep accepting them back. Bro!! I accepted the apology and in the same day- THE SAME DAY. Back at it. Will ruin it all just to get their way. That is until the attention is removed, snatched from their greedy fucking hands, and pried from their expensive nails. They will forever remain miserable yet will smile the hardest. Go out, “turn up”, do single woman/man shit to lay in bed to still dislike yourself. Steady searching for an image. An image that showed up and made a scene that could have changed many of our outlooks on you. Yet he never ever been spoken to as I was. Copy. Will get drunk and fuck “lit” men/women to run from yourself. Gives the most yet the most pained. Puts everyone first because they CANNOT STAND THIER VERY OWN BEING. Simply put. Knows their faults but knows yours more (had to repeat that).Real experts at making it feel as if you wronged them- INTENSELY too. Give an inch and EVERY TIME takes a mile every single time. Never sees your sacrifices nor cares too. “I don’t respect you”- OH WORD?! Coming from a self destructive, can’t love themselves human being?
Bruh you don’t respect yourself!!
Lowlifes that look phenomenal if you ask me. And that’s the trap. Man or woman, their looks are usually fascinating. But as you know, it’s a mask- literally, ha ha!!
After that box becomes beat or that D becomes community, what else is there?! Their claims of giving you the best life?! Their radio persona!! Will ruin an proposal because it wasn’t written in black ink type shit. And say you’re not compromising. These people are pathetic- no judging
Facts are facts.
PayneInTheCulo 